It’s 1 PM on Monday afternoon and my husband walks in the door. My first thought was there’s something wrong. There’s no way he’s home at 1p.m. on a Monday. The first thing out of Tysons mouth was “you need to call your Mom.” “Mom......” “Sissy, Whitney passed away.” . . I was so fortunate to grow up with so many cousins! Near or far, our double chins always connected us! (Family joke) Whit and I were apart of the “Summer Birthday Cousins” a.k.a we got together and celebrated all the birthdays at once! When we were younger, we had no choice to be friends or not! Well, in our adult life Whitney and I had grown to be best friends. We would talk everyday, whether it was text messages, Facebook, SnapChat or of course Instagram! She was who I turned to when I had a problem- she just had the best advice or if she didn’t have advice, ok let’s be real she always gave her two cents! She loved my babies like they were her own- she loved everyone. She would light up a room when she walked into it. It was her big blue eyes, her smile or her so recognizable voice. She got that from her Announcer Dad! She was just noticed and loved by everyone because she lived life with so much love and passion- Just like her Mommy. She was a force to be reckoned with. “Mom......” “Sissy, Whitney passed away.” NO FUCKING WAY NO. FUCKING. WAY. Ok, clearly my Mom knows me and knew I needed my husband here because I’M ABOUT TO LOSE IT. She was 28. Is 28. SHIT. WTF OMG her husband. I just want to hug him. Hold him and wish I could just turn back time. I called Whitney’s little sister and she was at the hospital with their entire immediate family. I didn’t even know what to say. You hear about it, you read about it but it never actually makes sense until it happens to you. Even then it makes NO SENSE AT ALL. I was hurting so bad I couldn’t even imagine their pain. This was so unexpected. So unexpected. Whitney was such a beautiful soul. Mama Now what do I do?? One day at a time. Whit’s picture is hanging on my fridge and I cry at least once a day when I make eye contact with it. Talking about her and writing about her really helps as well. Whit- there isn’t a day that goes by that I don’t think about you. Most days it’s funny things I wish I could gossip with you about or it’s a milestone Max or Madi hit. Either way, continue to be everyones Guardian Angel. I’ll keep meeting you in my dreams and one day be reunited with you in heaven. I love you- and omg wtf were they thinking of casting COLTON as the bachelor! I mean c’mon!!!